All about Provision, Dead Volvos, and Receiving Blessings

Today is February 25th, in the year of 2014… And I have not written in a very LONG time. I hate not writing; feeling like I am not using the talents that my God has blessed me with… But I digress!!!! 🙂

 

In the last week, I bought a new car from a friend for a lot less than listing price, upon the day of making my last payment; my old car broke down in the middle of a busy intersection – where a very kind police man had to push me across the street where I gracefully jerked the newly dead Volvo to a stop… In the midst of all this I was praying “Please God, NOT TODAY!”, crying (because I had never had this sort of thing happen to me before, and I was embarrassed beyond belief and angry that this stupid piece of machinery had the gall to die on me in the middle of traffic! On my way to work no less!).

But while I was angry, and walking the rest of the way to my place of employment – grumbling, and attempting to pull myself together even though I had streaks of black eyeliner and mascara running down my cheeks… God had me in the palm of His hand.

That day a dear friend of my family’s came to my rescue; bought oil, and coolant for the smoking Volvo (which my boss had offered to help fix, and helped me get it into my work’s parking lot), and proceeded to work on it…  God knew that these people had those talents. God knew that I needed to break down in that particular intersection – instead of on a dark, lonely back road to nowheresville.

God knew these things – and He provided for them. He protected me.

All I needed to do was receive the blessings that He had for me in that situation – to humble myself before my Father in Heaven and say thank you, and allow the people He put in the right places at the right time, to work their talents that He had given them…

 

List What You are Grateful For.

  • Love
  • My family… My Aunt in Cali who is so strong and not afraid to stand up for herself and her family and is awesome… My Mom who is also so strong, and amazing, and supportive (she is a super hero)… My dad who has worked incredibly hard his whole life… My uncle who is like a big brother to me… My siblings… Yeah, I got pretty stinkin’ blessed in the family department and I am so grateful for all of them.
  • My incredible, patient, handsome, loving boyfriend; who tries to always make me smile, and understands the bad days with the whole diabetes business… I really sometimes can’t believe that God has blessed me with him.
  • For great doctors who listen to me, and don’t try to push a bunch of medications and stuff.
  • For my job as a barista; and my coworkers and boss.
  • That God just keeps supplying all that I need…
  • For where I live
  • For the stage of life I am in…
  • For the ability to be able to communicate my thoughts and feelings in creative ways.
  • For the chances I have had to live in different places and all the things I learned from those experiences.
  • For 2nd chances
  • Long summer days
  • Long talks with my love
  • The online community of people who share my disease and can relate… Diabetics Unite!
  • Meeting new people, and making new friends
  • The opportunities that the Lord has in store for me; that I don’t even know about yet.
  • The ability to continue to learn and grow as a person…
  • Happiness – and the opportunity to choose to be happy no matter what the circumstance.
  • Compassion
  • Kindness
  • The beauty all around us every day
  • The hardships
  • Learning from my mistakes
  • Forgiveness

52 Lists // My current & Future Goals & Dreams

  • Learn a new language
  • Volunteer with a diabetes advocacy group
  • Always speak love/kindness
  • Marry my best friend, & the love of my life.
  • Earn a degree in theology
  • Visit New Orléans on a road-trip
  • Go on a missions trip
  • Go with my love to visit California & Disneyland
  • Have at least 2 children
  • Learn a new instrument
  • Stand beneath the very center of the Eiffel Tower
  • Run in a “Run For Your Lives” zombie 5k event
  • Understand football
  • Write a novel
  • See said novel published
  • Get on the pump or omnipod
  • Go to Africa
  • Grow old with my future husband
  • Start practicing yoga
  • Spend more of my days outside
  • Read at least 5 classic novels within the next 2 years…
  • Be in the habit of reading my bible every single day

This is just the beginning – as I was typing this more and more ideas kept leaping into my thoughts and adding themselves to this post… There are lots more I want to add to my little list – but I think this will do for now. 😉  

A List of Things I should be proud of:

 

  • I graduated high school a year early with a 3.8 GPA
  • I have never been fired
  • I make an excellent macchiato (caramel and hazelnut both)
  • I am a gifted writer
  • I am strong
  • I am not afraid to dream
  • I have had my heart-broken in the past; but by the Grace of God, I have been able to fall in love with a wonderful, kind, smart, loving, loyal man who loves me for who I am.
  • I am proud to call myself a follower of Christ
  • I feel things deeply
  • I am always honest
  • I am compassionate
  • I do not and will not let my disease define who I am.
  • I believe everything happens for a reason
  • In 2013 I was able to pay off a sizable part of the debts I owe
  • I am funny
  • I am intelligent
  • I am learning that it is okay and brave to be open and vulnerable
  • I try not to judge people
  • I want to always speak kindness
  • I have forgiven those who have hurt me in the past
  • My Boyfriend
  • My Mom
  • My Dad
  • My siblings
  • I am a barista at a good company
  • I grew up as a Washingtonian – transplanted from California at age 2
  • I have a small Dr. Who obsession
  • I see God’s fingerprints everywhere
  • I went to bible college
  • I am a hard worker
  • I go after what I want
  • I am good listener
  • I want to encourage other women – that our identity is found in Christ… And that we are so much more valuable than we give ourselves credit for.
  • I can stretch a penny

 

 

This list was surprisingly hard for me to write – I didn’t want to come off showy – or prideful… But it is okay to take pride in who I am as a person; in the things I have learned, and am learning still…

 

52 Lists: My Greatest Comforts

1. Long hugs from my boyfriend

2. Listening to books on tape or podcasts while driving

3. Hazelnut creamer in my coffee

4. My old burlap and pistachio green comforter

5. Any song on my top 10 list

6. Good morning and goodnight texts

7. Christmas trees

8. Jack O’Lanterns

9. Listening to my family talk

10. Talking with my love

11. Jackie and Bender on KISS fm (they make me laugh on my morning commute)

12. Snuggling with my dog (when she lets me)

13. Singing along to my favorite songs

14. Prayer

15. Writing pages and pages of journal entries

16. The feeling of knowing that I am completely loved and accepted

17. Taking long walks

18. Window shopping

19. Lazy days

20. Well crafted lattes

21. Deep conversations

22. Fresh sheets

23. Long showers

24. Strawberry scented shampoo

25. The sound of rain beating against the roof and windows

26. Cuddling close to my love while watching a movie together

27.  Purpose

28. Cooking something for someone special

29. Pinning things on Pinterest

30. Doing my makeup

31. Jesus

32. My boyfriend

33. My family

34. My friends

35. Watching new episodes of Dr. Who on my iPad

36. Books

37. The Band Perry

38. Getting a new tattoo

39. Dreaming

40. My tattoos

41. Clam Chowder

42. Gone, Gone, Gone by Philip Philips

43. Traveling

44. Making other people smile

45. The christmas lights hanging in my room

52 Lists: Week 1

Words that touch my Soul.

 

There is this new little blog series going around the blogosphere – and I want to throw my hat into the fray… It’s 52 Lists. Lists of words that touch our souls; lists of the things that bring us the greatest comforts. Lists of things we should be proud of! Lists of ways we can love others.  That sort of stuff.

I think it’s great! And I want in… So – here goes nothing!!!! 😉 And here is a link back to the lady who started it all: http://www.moorea-seal.com/p/52-lists.html  Go check it out – it’s pretty awesome… and I am excited. 🙂

 

 

WORDS THAT TOUCH MY SOUL:

 

  • Saved
  • Loved
  • Hugs
  • Kisses
  • Girlfriend
  • Boyfriend
  • Sister
  • Daughter
  • Forgiven
  • Diabetic
  • Kindness
  • Hope
  • Faithfulness
  • Determined
  • Creativity
  • In Love
  • Life
  • Insulin
  • Moonlight
  • Autumn
  • Ink
  • Second Chances
  • Strength
  • Gentile
  • Lapin
  • Nature
  • Sunshine
  • Vivid
  • Music
  • God
  • Accepted
  • Understood
  • Unfolding
  • Rest
  • Gift
  • Books
  • Undaunted
  • Free
  • Unique
  • Beautiful
  • Identity

 

 

The ‘I’ in Life.

 

 

Some days I look at my behavior – and I shock myself.

I can’t believe I just said this, or did that. Especially when my actions or words are directed toward someone I dearly love…

Even some stranger who had the nerve to cut me off in traffic; or ride my bumper down the highway when the speed limit clearly says ’60 mph’ – and they are pushing me to go 70, 75, 80 mph – but, no big deal! Speed limits are only mild suggestions! Right………..!?

These instances that everyone goes through every day are the perfect example of being SELF-centered. Being Human.

Now, don’t get me wrong – it’s good to be centered…  But what are we centered on??? Are we centered on Jesus – or are we centered on SELF?

On Sunday morning, at the small Baptist church the boyfriend and I have attended lately, I felt like the pastor was speaking directly to me at different points in the sermon.

He didn’t need to look in my direction – but I felt the heaviness of conviction building on my heart all the same.

The pastor said: “Self is the original four letter word.”   I felt like the phrase hit me between the eyes… How many times a day am I only concerned about that ‘I’ in the word Life?  I’m ashamed to think that so many of my thoughts are centered on how events effect ME; how does this make ME feel; why is this happening to ME? Me, me, me, me, me.

It is an issue/boulder in my heart that I am praying desperately that the Holy Spirit will just keep chiseling away at.

To say the least, this issue of being SELF-centered is a great reminder that all of us are just one big construction site – that will never be completed until we see Him face to face. No one is perfect.

Just some stuff that was perculating in my brain as I try to center myself on Jesus – and put His Kingdom first in my life always.

I hope my thoughts make sense. If not I am gonna blame the Blood Sugar… 😉

 

 

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year everyone!!!!

2012 was a crazy year!!! So many changes, for the better – even if it didn’t feel like it at the time.

In 2012 I moved back to Washington, I met my amazing boyfriend; and was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. I started working at the best job I’ve ever had; and I’ve met amazing people some of whom I got to bring in the New Year with!!!!! 🙂

I can’t wait to see the blessings The Lord has in store for 2013!!! If there was one thing that 2012 taught me, it would be that the best place to be is in the center of God’s will.

In short – I love my life – diabetes and all. ❤

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Day 5 & 6 & so on…

Days got away from me on my 30 days of thankfulness! Ahhh! Oh well, I’m still thankful! 😉

 

I am thankful for sweet weekends… And I am way thankful for this guy! (see awesome picture below!)

He is seriously the best, most encouraging, wonderful boyfriend anyone could ask for!!!  I am very blessed. ❤   He always is so supportive, and patient. Especially with everything about the whole diabetes monster. 🙂 He always seeks to help me smile; and I am so happy that I can be a blessing to him, and encourage him as well! 🙂

 

Happy Monday!