List What You are Grateful For.

  • Love
  • My family… My Aunt in Cali who is so strong and not afraid to stand up for herself and her family and is awesome… My Mom who is also so strong, and amazing, and supportive (she is a super hero)… My dad who has worked incredibly hard his whole life… My uncle who is like a big brother to me… My siblings… Yeah, I got pretty stinkin’ blessed in the family department and I am so grateful for all of them.
  • My incredible, patient, handsome, loving boyfriend; who tries to always make me smile, and understands the bad days with the whole diabetes business… I really sometimes can’t believe that God has blessed me with him.
  • For great doctors who listen to me, and don’t try to push a bunch of medications and stuff.
  • For my job as a barista; and my coworkers and boss.
  • That God just keeps supplying all that I need…
  • For where I live
  • For the stage of life I am in…
  • For the ability to be able to communicate my thoughts and feelings in creative ways.
  • For the chances I have had to live in different places and all the things I learned from those experiences.
  • For 2nd chances
  • Long summer days
  • Long talks with my love
  • The online community of people who share my disease and can relate… Diabetics Unite!
  • Meeting new people, and making new friends
  • The opportunities that the Lord has in store for me; that I don’t even know about yet.
  • The ability to continue to learn and grow as a person…
  • Happiness – and the opportunity to choose to be happy no matter what the circumstance.
  • Compassion
  • Kindness
  • The beauty all around us every day
  • The hardships
  • Learning from my mistakes
  • Forgiveness

52 Lists // My current & Future Goals & Dreams

  • Learn a new language
  • Volunteer with a diabetes advocacy group
  • Always speak love/kindness
  • Marry my best friend, & the love of my life.
  • Earn a degree in theology
  • Visit New Orléans on a road-trip
  • Go on a missions trip
  • Go with my love to visit California & Disneyland
  • Have at least 2 children
  • Learn a new instrument
  • Stand beneath the very center of the Eiffel Tower
  • Run in a “Run For Your Lives” zombie 5k event
  • Understand football
  • Write a novel
  • See said novel published
  • Get on the pump or omnipod
  • Go to Africa
  • Grow old with my future husband
  • Start practicing yoga
  • Spend more of my days outside
  • Read at least 5 classic novels within the next 2 years…
  • Be in the habit of reading my bible every single day

This is just the beginning – as I was typing this more and more ideas kept leaping into my thoughts and adding themselves to this post… There are lots more I want to add to my little list – but I think this will do for now. 😉  

The ‘I’ in Life.

 

 

Some days I look at my behavior – and I shock myself.

I can’t believe I just said this, or did that. Especially when my actions or words are directed toward someone I dearly love…

Even some stranger who had the nerve to cut me off in traffic; or ride my bumper down the highway when the speed limit clearly says ’60 mph’ – and they are pushing me to go 70, 75, 80 mph – but, no big deal! Speed limits are only mild suggestions! Right………..!?

These instances that everyone goes through every day are the perfect example of being SELF-centered. Being Human.

Now, don’t get me wrong – it’s good to be centered…  But what are we centered on??? Are we centered on Jesus – or are we centered on SELF?

On Sunday morning, at the small Baptist church the boyfriend and I have attended lately, I felt like the pastor was speaking directly to me at different points in the sermon.

He didn’t need to look in my direction – but I felt the heaviness of conviction building on my heart all the same.

The pastor said: “Self is the original four letter word.”   I felt like the phrase hit me between the eyes… How many times a day am I only concerned about that ‘I’ in the word Life?  I’m ashamed to think that so many of my thoughts are centered on how events effect ME; how does this make ME feel; why is this happening to ME? Me, me, me, me, me.

It is an issue/boulder in my heart that I am praying desperately that the Holy Spirit will just keep chiseling away at.

To say the least, this issue of being SELF-centered is a great reminder that all of us are just one big construction site – that will never be completed until we see Him face to face. No one is perfect.

Just some stuff that was perculating in my brain as I try to center myself on Jesus – and put His Kingdom first in my life always.

I hope my thoughts make sense. If not I am gonna blame the Blood Sugar… 😉

 

 

Happy New Year!!!!

Happy New Year everyone!!!!

2012 was a crazy year!!! So many changes, for the better – even if it didn’t feel like it at the time.

In 2012 I moved back to Washington, I met my amazing boyfriend; and was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. I started working at the best job I’ve ever had; and I’ve met amazing people some of whom I got to bring in the New Year with!!!!! 🙂

I can’t wait to see the blessings The Lord has in store for 2013!!! If there was one thing that 2012 taught me, it would be that the best place to be is in the center of God’s will.

In short – I love my life – diabetes and all. ❤

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Day 5 & 6 & so on…

Days got away from me on my 30 days of thankfulness! Ahhh! Oh well, I’m still thankful! 😉

 

I am thankful for sweet weekends… And I am way thankful for this guy! (see awesome picture below!)

He is seriously the best, most encouraging, wonderful boyfriend anyone could ask for!!!  I am very blessed. ❤   He always is so supportive, and patient. Especially with everything about the whole diabetes monster. 🙂 He always seeks to help me smile; and I am so happy that I can be a blessing to him, and encourage him as well! 🙂

 

Happy Monday!

 

Days 1 & 2: A Thankful November

ThanksgivingNovember is special to me for a few different reasons. It has always been filled with warm memories, and holiday traditions; early Christmas music, and eggnog lattes.

I have fond memories of waking up to hot chocolate and hot cinnamon rolls fresh from a warm oven on a downright chilly (often rainy or foggy) Thanksgiving morning; watching the Thanksgiving Day parade on cable while my dad starts prepping the turkey; thinking how one day I would love to actually be on the street in New York watching that giant bird with its pilgrims on its back pass by…

Another great tradition my family has is that my mom, sister, and I go join the crazed masses and shop from the unfortunate hours of 2am (sometimes midnight) until a more reasonable hour in the morning, and collapse into a booth in some diner and have breakfast. Its exhausting, but it’s always fun – and something we all look forward to every year!

To say the least: I love the holidays. I am happy they are here – and that I am home for them this year.

But November has a new connotation for me this year as well because it is also diabetes awareness month; and this is my very first November with diabetes. And there will be many more to come (God willing).

Having this disease makes you look at things differently. It makes you think that maybe one should be more thankful for every day you’re given – for every day that you have eyes that see –  or hair that is all still in its proper place; or organs that work the way they are supposed to. And being especially thankful for the people that love you and put up with you even on those dark, no good, simply BAD days.

That Thanksgiving really isn’t just about stuffing ourselves until we pop; but how we should be thankful for everything and everyone we’ve been blessed with – even the struggles we’ve had (because everything we go through can make us stronger versions of the people we were before), and come out on the other side of… Or the ones we’re in the midst of…

So, this month I will be participating in the 30 Days of Thankfulness Challenge!  There is always something to be thankful for – we just have to really look for those little bright spots in the darkness sometimes.

This month I will strive to think of others before myself – to be more considerate before I open my mouth, before I move my hands to action. To show my thankfulness for the people in my life with action instead of just with my words on the internet.

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Ali’s Day 1 & 2 Thankfulness List:

  1. Hot coffee
  2. finding sugar free holiday creamers at the store!!!!
  3. The amazing people in my life who have been so supportive – especially with this new challenge that I face daily in my life. And love me even when my blood sugar gets too low! 😀
  4. My family’s cat, and my dog who make me smile
  5. Forgiveness

I love this. ❤

Of Chocolate and Cupcakes

Happy Halloween!!!! This is probably one of my most favorite holidays… Right after Christmas, and Thanksgiving. 🙂

This is my first Halloween as a diabetic… And maybe I was a bit naughty about a few things… But God, that chocolate was worth it! haha  The cupcakes were as equally delicious – my sister, the master chef, baked them from scratch! They are vanilla spice, pumpkin, caramel cupcakes with homemade cream cheese frosting and strawberry, and grape nerds on top… Worth every carb. I am going to pry the recipe out of her, and post it – they were that amazing!!! 🙂

Today was also the day that I finished my first scarf ever!!! I felt so accomplished. 🙂 haha Yay for small accomplishments in the world of “domestic goddess attempts”… I just started my next project – the yarn is different, and fuzzy, and it’s kinda hard to see the stitches properly – but I shall master this knitting thing! But I digress.

Today’s Halloween Happy List Consists Of:

  • Doing my lil’ bro’s zombie makeup. He looked awesome!
  • Eating regular, fun sized kit-kats and crunch bars, and drinking the Anniversary blend from Starbucks while giving out candy
  • Spending time with my family 🙂
  • Finishing my first ever scarf!!! (I’m a little proud of myself at the moment…)
  • Beautiful fall colors
  • Knowing the Holidays are coming sooner than later.
  • NanoWriMo starting in a matter of mere hours….
  • Sweet text messages from the boyfriend 🙂
  • Trying on masks at the store for photo-ops
  • smiling
  • resolving to start running in the morning… (Gotta start training for the next RUN FOR YOUR LIVES event!!!!)
  • Learning from my master-crafts-woman of a grandmother 🙂
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  • Sugar-free lattes, on wet, cold mornings!

Happy!

Of November – NanoWriMo and more

I can’t believe it’s October 9th (in 10 days Paranormal Activity 4 appears in theatres .. And yes, I will be seeing it. I have seen all the other 3, and can’t stand not knowing what happens in the 4th movie!)… I love autumn, and Winter. And October is probably one of my most favorite months out of the year…

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Needless to say: Halloween will be pretty fantastic! I can’t wait for the haunted houses, trick-or-treat(ers); hot chocolate; and for the weather to FINALLY get cold enough for me to wear leggings and boots, and pretty scarves and coats! 🙂

I expect November being interesting  – I have just signed up for NanoWriMo… And I intend to complete it this year! And best yet – I actually have a few ideas percolating, so I might actually have something to write about this year! 🙂 And November is also diabetes awareness month.

Speaking of the big bad Diabetes Monster: The last few days have been pretty good! This morning my blood sugar was pretty much in the ‘target zone’ for what I think is called the ‘resting’ period…! Needless to say I have felt so much better lately as its stained in the 100’s and pretty consistent – (more energy, happier, more talkative, etc.). haha It’s been awesome!

Trying to manage this disease is a major adjustment, and I’m trying to learn more and more about my type 1, so that when people offer ‘helpful’ suggestions; I can try to help maybe educate them instead of rolling my eyes, which doesn’t always translate very well… Sometimes it’s hard to be polite… O:)  BUT… I’m sticking with the whole God doesn’t give us more than we can take… He’s just helping me bend, and stretch…….A lot. I am so thankful for the support system I have – they’re all amazing. Enough said. 😉

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In need of a paper bag, please…

Last night I had a mini break down for an hour and half or so. And it was over the stupidest thing…

I suppose I was crying about a lot of things – but a lot of it had to do with the realization that I will never be able to get drunk. I can drink, don’t get me wrong – but I can only have 1 drink, and it has to be with a meal… And I have to take enough insulin before hand too.

It really isn’t that big of a deal, honestly; I’ve never been that big of a drinker, and I’m a light weight to boot. But last night the enormity of everything just finally caught up with me, I think…  I just saw this whole piece of my life that every other 21 year old is able to indulge in, just being sliced off of my life – an experience I will never get to have.

Like I said, as I type this I feel a little silly even posting this. But this is how I felt. This is the truth.

 

I am still adjusting to this new way of life…